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Tuesday, July 9, 2013

It's almost been a year since we used this thing. I realize that it was cute and we tried to set up a theme for the way the blog looks, but it is so hard to look at. Not aesthetically displeasing, so much as... wow it is really white and packed with some extremely bright colors. Anyway, the reason why I came here:

Damn it sure is nice going to sleep knowing I will, at one point or another, be woken up by my son screaming and crying in his sleep. So glad he's learned how to have nightmares. I can only imagine what they are about.

God knows everything I have bad dreams about I can justify. I'll wake up and the woman I care about won't be dead, I won't have a tiny package, and there's no way the squirrels will get the better of me. But him? He's been chopped up and stitched back together 13 times, all while he was so tiny that even if he'd been conscious enough to come up with the idea of fighting back it would have been futile.

I just want to pick him up, but I know that if I do he'll be up until he falls back asleep again. So I guess I'll just sit there and not read. In the dark. Because that is better than the possibility of waking him up. And heck, who knows, maybe one day - when he is capable of speech - I'll hear something out of it that'll clue me in as to why he is having nightmares.

But the dreams when he babbles and laughs... they make it all worth it.